I'm the human person of your tangled earphone
you used to be my favorite song,
that happy song i listened to every day and night
the song i used for my ringtones
that vibrates my heart everytime it rings
but slowly things change…
i feel that you’re slowly fading
and that song no longer makes me happy
it makes me sad, instead
because it’s no longer ringing
Relationship was never been so hard before
but with you, it feels like a rollercoaster
while all i wanted was a stable one
a love that could make me feel safe, warm, and calm.
You were you, and I was me
we laughed, we spent our times together, we exchanged our love
then this world suddenly couldn’t protect you any longer
we couldn’t protect our love any longer.
the ocean will rub my bones to dust
and I will wear the smile you gave me
in the brightest shade of blue
Lyrics:
Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street
Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly
Loving him is like trying to change your mind
Once you’re already flying through the free fall
Like the colors in autumn, so bright, just before they lose it all
Losing him was blue, like I’d never known
Missing him was dark gray, all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know
Somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Loving him was red
Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted
Was right there in front of you
Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words
To your old favorite song
Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword
And realizing there’s no right answer
Regretting him was like wishing you never found out
That love could be that strong
Losing him was blue, like I’d never known
Missing him was dark gray, all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know
Somebody you never met
But loving him was red
Oh, red
Burning red
Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes
Tell myself it’s time now gotta let go
But moving on from him is impossible
When I still see it all in my head
In burning red
Burning, it was red
Oh, losing him was blue, like I’d never known
Missing him was dark gray, all alone
Forgetting him was like trying to know
Somebody you never met
‘Cause loving him was red
Yeah, yeah, red
Burning red
And that’s why he’s spinning ’round in my head
Comes back to me, burning red
Yeah, yeah..
His love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street . . . . .
and tonight,
i miss u a little more,
a little more than i should.
how i wish i could see u again,
even if it’s just a dream.
and i hope by morning
God will take all these sadness of mine,
’cause i never thought
I’d feel so much blue like this,
so much blue.
You left me with so many regrets
That “one day” we’ve always dreamed of
If only if only if only~
If only there’s a way we could turn back time
I wanna go back to when you lulls me to sleep
and I would hug you so tight
and love you right
i-wanna-love-you-
r i g h t.
Time has passed,
Like the smoke particles in the air,
Chaotic silence and grief,
A demanding wish to spend more nights with her,
And the memories of regrets that ripped me apart.
Nothing to stare, pure sadness and empty rooms,
My eyes transfixed to an unknown distant,
An endless void, making me so dizzy.
That day was painted with so many colours,
what a beautiful day!
Little did I know
that she’ll be no longer here with me
that our times are not much to left
Slowly,
her breath
her eyes
her body
fade away.
Now she’s covered in white clothes
of unsaid feelings and warm breath.
Nothing seem to ease, like a blow of breeze chasing me inside
As I paced back and forth in the hospital
Memories suffocated me up, tears were left dried
Causing me to feel lightheaded.
Aug 2, 2020 – 3:42 PM
I hope I could spend more days with her
Hold her hands, hear her laughter
The last time (July 31) she saw me, she said
“How many childrens did you have?”
“Five.” I answered.
“Huh?” She confused.
I’ve never been so desperate
to feel like every second is sooo important
I can’t feel any tiredness
Everything feels so numb
